Two sides Part 1

I look in the mirror and see him. A part of me but were not the same. Two differnt goals, were as i think about the future while he thinks to live in the moment. As much as i hate to see say it we use to be friends once. I would let him drive us to who knows where but then he did stuff that conflicted who i was. He would lust after woman and drink till he got drunk. He hates people but why sugar coat hate its just anothet word for murder. Now im trapped because latley we have been fighting and he is winning. He puts me in the mirror and i have been watching what he does to everyone i care about. Its cold  in here i cant breathe i have no control.  I need help!